Quote of the Week

"We Must be Willing to Give Up the Life We Have Planned, So As to Have the Life that is Waiting for Us."
-Joseph Campbell
Week of Aug 12, 2013

Tuesday, April 1, 2008


I'm tired. I really couldn't get up today. Part of it is my normal tired. Part of it is that time of month seems to sap energy. And part of it is, I assume, depression.

I'm tired of trying so hard to help people get better...and still being the bad guy. I'm tired of seeing the same mistakes over and over. I'm tired of being told the same thing, and not being given the tools to fix x, y, or z. I'm tired of being the bad guy. Yeah, I said that already once, but it's starting to get to me.

I'm tired of not having time to myself. Getting up earlier than my body can function.

I'm tired of doing extra for nothing.

I'm tired of how I look, but too tired to do anything about it. I think I last got a haircut in January. It looks bad.

And now I'm tired of blogging.


Kristin Michelle said...

i am sorry you are feeling so bad right now...i wish there was something i could say to make you feel better!
i could come over and watch your boys for you so you can have time to yourself...

Anonymous said...

Hey darlin, I know you and know how invested you get in work and in life. That's a good thing. But sometimes you just have to let go and realize other people's inadequacies and problems are beyond your control. You can offer the advice and support... but some are just not smart enough to take it. That's their problem, not yours. You are a WONDERFUL, intelligent and beautiful woman. Don't ever doubt that. Love and miss you, Karlyn

Lisa said...

People suck.
You don't.

I know what you're saying about being the bad guy, because I'm dealing with that too and sometimes it just isn't fair.

You deserve a moment to yourself....take it! I know it's easier said than done, but don't feel guilty, don't apologize, just take it. If you need someone to watch your boys just call me--I'll bring my kiddos and take them for a big park picnic while you go and just breathe. Seriously.

Shawn said...

Just bitch slap em and quit being so nice! Ok that was supposed to make you laugh :) hugs to you hang in there and maybe invest in some momma time :)

Mcmuffy said...

Shawn made me laugh. I agree with the other gals. Take those babysitting offers and go do something for yourself! Depression doesn't need to win. Don't worry about others, you can only control yourself. (I've dealing with that a lot lately too.) I'll be thinking about you today.

KELLY said...

These comments mean a lot -- thanks guys. And if I can ever figure it out ... I might let you help me some time.

I swing real low when I have PMS. I don't think it's normal. But do I even have time to explore it more, to see if something would help? Nope. Fugly.

Lisa said...

That's one of my favorite words......FUGLY. It so doesn't apply to you though.

Maricar said...

Man, oh man -- sis-tah.
You are always so great about lifting me up when I need it (no short joke intended there), and I wish I could do the same for you.